As the Season Changes...

Wow! It has been quite some time since I have sat down to put fingers to keyboard :)

Much has changed & as I change - so will this blog...

For those of you resistant to change............ deal with it! ~ just kidding ;)

In the past fews months old love has gone & new love has rushed in taking over me... so much so that I have abandoned much... leaving me with some love handles - so to speak... Got to take the good with the bad, right?

So much has happened in these last few months... while I was out kissing frogs - my prince was waiting on me... thank God he was patient. So, with that being said - I or shall I say my ex ended the madness between us - whew! While I was busy getting my groove back - along came G (we shall refer to him this way since it's much easier - for now, at least).

It all started out as friends... so, lovely this way... I had not tried this way before so this was all new & exciting to me. As the glorious days went by - our friendship and understanding of each other grew. As it grew - I started to encounter new beings of myself... I hope this makes sense. I encountered different sides of me... sides of me that I did not know existed... I started to laugh more (again - remember, I had been on a roller coaster prior to this) I started to open up and think of things in a more revealing way. Wow! such Freedom! I felt all flushed with fever ~ like wild horses were running through me... such elation! I now know that this is what my Savior desires for me... to be truly joyful! I truly believe he put G in my life for this reason... I know that HE uses people or situations in our life to reach us... G has been one of those instruments.

I wish to expound on this... however, the grumblings down below beckon me to the kitchen... be back soon, my friends...

Aceptación de dios...

Sólo quería escribir una nota breve, por ahora ...

Todos los días me despierto - Estoy muy agradecida ...

Estoy muy agradecida por las posibilidades que tengo - que hacerlo todo de nuevo o una forma diferente ... Al mirar alrededor - También estoy consciente de todas las fragilidades ... parece que muchos de nosotros estamos buscando y buscando --- y que no han encontrado la paz ... esto es lo que creo que todos realmente buscan - incluso cuando no sabemos de nosotros mismos ...

Me desperté hoy y sé que que la paz debe ser buscada segundo por segundo, minuto a minuto, hora por hora... Hoy estoy en mi camino!

Estoy agradecida de que Dios me acepta y que mi nivel no es el hombre ... aquí es donde comienza mi paz.

Gracias Señor por aceptarme como soy y por siempre siendo fiele - incluso cuando no estoy ...

su constante compañero,

~deirdra

Acceptance From God

I just wanted to write a quick note for now...

Everyday I wake up - I am so grateful...

I am so grateful for the chances that I am given to do it all over again or a different way... As I look around - I am also mindful of everyone's fragilities... it seems that so many of us are searching and searching --- and have not found that peace... this is what I believe we ALL really search for - even when we do not know it ourselves...

I woke up today and I know that that peace must be sought after on a second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour basis...  I am on my way! 

I am grateful that God accepts me and that my standard is not man... this is where my peace begins.

Thank you Lord for accepting me and always being faithful - even when I am not...

your constant companion,

~deirdra

Today!!!

Today is the day I have decided to Forgive Me!

 - Yes, I feel it in my heart - it is stirring within me!

 - I am Happy!

 - I am Grateful!

 - I am Ever Mindful!

I know I have been away for a little while... I have been busy learning and experiencing HIS forgiveness and pouring myself into others... it's a Grand feeling...

I will update you on what has been going on - stay tuned...

your constant companion,

~deirdra

Am I Ready to Forgive Myself? ...

- Ok, let me start off by saying that i'm happy to write these words to you tonight...

- As I begin this journey on forgiveness ---- I'm reminded that my unforgiveness is towards someone very special in my life & in order to move on... I must accept them... totally...
- The person who I have refused forgiveness to - is myself!
- I have come to the crushing blow... that I live with this anger towards myself & that I haven't been able to go forward ----- because somewhere in the back of my head I feel as if I don't deserve it... behaving like this has cost me alot...
- Today I made a conscious decision to forgive another, besides myself... Because I want to keep this real - I will not speak in riddles... I will let you know - who, "I have not forgiven"
- It is my mother, I'm sorry to say, that sometimes, I don't even think of her... I have pushed her sooo far away - I just wanted to forget and then not really forget, because she is mother & I do love her...
- I'm realizing & I say realizing because I'm slowly taking baby steps towards my freedom, what I'm feeling right now is that somewhere deep inside of me - I harbor anger and resentment towards my mother... everytime she said this, I thought to myself... "no, I do not" and I would tell her the same thing... I really didn't see it, however, it is slowly being revealed to me - like when a doctor removes the bandages that covered up nasty scars & then the uncovering is something so liberating and marvelous... I'm starting to feel this way in respects towards facing my "my unforgiveness"


...to be continued

your constant companion,

~deirdra

Introductory Blog...

JESUS's words...

Matthew 18:21-22:
- 21 Then Peter came to Him and said, "Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Until seven times?"
- 22 And Jesus said unto him, "I say not unto thee, until seven times, but until seventy times seven.


- So we begin, hello there... my name is Deirdra...

- First, let me start off by saying that this blog in no way is meant to judge or be an authority on life's issues... it is simply my belief in what my Savior has imparted on me...
- It is my goal to be an ear, lift someone up, enlighten the busy people that sit and share with me for a while... and to constantly remind myself of my own fragility...
- I'm not a scholar or a theologian - simply an ambassador of Christ - an ambassador to all nations... ;)

- As you can see by my title... this blog will address forgiveness... such a simple word, however, a grand feat for many...

- dictionary.com version
- for⋅give⋅ness 
 /fərˈgɪvnɪs/ [fer-giv-nis] –noun
1. act of forgiving; state of being forgiven.
2. disposition or willingness to forgive.

- Forgiveness is something that I also struggle with... I have come to realize that most of us do... we may not be aware of it, however, when something terrible happens to us or our loved ones... it is then that we must face this... it is then that the struggle begins...

- I have learned that To FORGIVE - is To GIVE as before... Wow... this is hard... it takes courage, it takes surrender, it takes a willingness and it takes humility...

- I begin this journey with an open heart and mind and a willingness to that freedom that comes with letting go and moving on... because, as HIS word shows... forgiveness is meant for the forgivor... not necessarily the forgivee...

- So, I thank you for taking the time to park here for a little, for sharing (if you wish) or even commenting and enlightening me...

- In HIS humble love,

your constant companion,

~deirdra